Love + medicine =......................

This semester had been a good one. It makes me think more than any other period in my life. I think I'm getting older. That's why i think much more than i used to. Being 20 is definitely marked a new kinda phase in life. At this age, the ability to understand others thoughts and emotions become extremely important. More than anything else. And somehow I think i'm getting good at it. Though i admit that i fumble a few times along the way.

See, sometimes it is really hard not to fall in love. I'll be the biggest liar to suggest that I have no one that i liked or interested either in Taylors or Monash. After all, i'm just a boy with a hormone imbalance (not my fault if i fall in love). It is a nature for us to like someone. Denying your nature is like saying no to food or water for 20 years. No one can do it. At least not me.

But see, medicine needs a lot of efforts and focus and attention and hardwork. This is not an easy course that one may past in 3 years without studying anything. First sem nearly choked me to death. Can't imagine next year in Year 2. Tonnes of works and stuffs to think and do. And if you reader is not a medicine student, try to observe one in your university. I think generally medicine students are the same all over the world. They study at least 6 days a week (cause saturday is NEVER a weekend) and sleep around 2 am (if they are a lazy student like me). Then you know, this is definitely a medicine student.

I'm not saying it is wrong to fall in love if you're a medicine student. But be really careful though. 5 years down the road, and you can't afford to fumble up in the whole 5 years. One sem out, then you need to repeat the whole year. Not a good idea financially. To make a commitment while studying.........I knew some people who succeed to have relationship while studying, but i can tell you, they are minority. Way minority. No kidding. But then, one will ask himself'

" If he can do it, why can't I?"

Ahahahaha. This is a hard question to answer.

Breaking up will definitely give you a hard time. It's not easy to loose someone. And the effect is definitely devastating. More devastating if you're a medicine student. But hye! I've also seen some medical students who perform well eventhough they involved in a relationship. Not saying that the break-up-is-devastating rule is applied to everyone but if you really think you can't handle it, stay away from it. Make sure you're tough enough to endure it. Then you can start (if you wish to)

And one more interesting thing i learn this semester. There is a high tendency for a medical student to fall in love with another medical student, ESPECIALLY those who works in a group. See, there is a say among us that 'only medical students understand each other'. I guess it make sense. For 5 years, if you talk about some kind of antibiotic or microorganism, the only person who will understand it is the girl next to you. And she is the one who you'll see everyday (especially if you're in a group) and you tend to be more honest with this kinda girl. After all, she laugh at your medical-jargons-kinda-jokes and she understand you if you're involve in some sort of difficulties. You turn to her when you stressed out or freak out before exam. And the best part is that she will turn back to you if she happened to freak out in exam too. It's not one-kinda-side relationship. That will definitely make a bond become stronger, and in less than 5 years, you will start to think she is the right person to have a life with.

But honestly, I don't know what to say actually. All these things can't be decided in a split second. After all, to love someone is not something that you can choose or decide the 'when' and 'who'. It just happened. More like a reflex. You don't think. You just love a person. No logical reasoning behind it. This is one of the things in life that most of us fail to reason. Love.

Ok. Now we come to 'WHAT I THINK' section (as if all the paragraphs above are not my personal opinions. HAHAHAHA). Again, as stated above, there is NOTHING wrong to fall in love. Feel free to do so. But it is important to learn how to control it, and when to express it. Of course, it ain't easy to keep everything by yourself. Sometimes you really wish to say it out loud. And seeing someone that you love 'snatched' by another guy from the same course is really not a good sight to see. Chill out though (i know it is not easy, but try ok?) Life offers you a lot of choices when you don't expect it to do so. Sometimes, to love never means to own. I always remember that. It keeps me strong all these years. And lastly,

' Let your love be like a misty rain. Slowly but flooding the river'

It is the quality that matters, not the quantity.