Can't reason it out..........

Hmmmmmmmmmm......
I rarely can't reason out my actions in life.
Well,
Sometimes i do act stupidly
But thats when I am joking and fooling around.
Lately somehow i do let my guard super duper down.
Telling something I shouldn't.
To a stranger.
Which complicates matter.

That night i didn't know why i was moved to talk.
Telling her every single thing that i've kept for years.
I mean every single detail.
And untill someone point to me
"Why did you tell her this kinda stuff?"
I thought it was the right action.

I think this is what happened
When you've been keeping something for a long time
Super long time
Sometimes you're hoping to find someone who will just understand
What you're talking about
At least an idea
Or a glimpse
That they're on the same page as you.
Once you found them
You are wayyyyyy too excited to tell'em everything
Without realising that it might lead to disaster
Or harm to others.
I really hope that she's a good person
Not an enemy
Or somethings like that.

Keeping a secret is a hard thing to do
It's a trust that others hold on you
A gift
A privillage
And i hope i hadn't make the wrong choice by letting her know.

p/s If by any odds you're reading this, know that i am not doubting you missy. I just don't understand why i told you everything that night. Because i never did it before, not even to my old friends.