If and only if......

If i had push a little bit harder............

If i stay up a little bit longer.............

If i asked more than others...........

If i do a little bit more...........

If i worked my ass more........

If........and only if..................

Well, that's what i always heard. That's how i used to feel (and still am sometimes).

The best part is..........

That's what people always said to me.

Friends.

Girls.

Guys.

Always.

Why?

Why you guys saying something like,

"If only I went there"

"If only I can meet him"

"If I was with him"

"If this....and that...."

Hahaha.

Sometimes it hurts me a lot.

Cause being here with the rest of us seems meaningless.

Insignificant.

Useless.

Unwanted.

I know i'm not equal to any of those people/places they would rather be.

But seeing us....

Was it a mistake?

A blunder?

What are we in front of your eyes?

I used to feel the same.

Thinking what i have is much less than others

Hoping for a better place to be.

Hatred and sadness overwhelming.

But i grew up.

In the dark days i was left behind

I met few good souls

Make a family

And move on.

YES, i did wished to be in a better place.

YES i used to long to see few familiar faces.

And YES I used to hope for something else.

Now i am different.

Thankful for what i have.

Thankful that i am here with you guys.

Thankful for a small little family that i built

Thankful for everything that i have.

Maybe

Just maybe

If you stop and look around

And think what you have instead of what you don't

Appreciate our presence in your life

Think what we've gone through

Think about what we should do

Think about who am I to you

Maybe

Just maybe............................................

You'll appreciate us more.

And that's the best thing i could ever wish for.